RFA Talk > It all started with¬†abstinence

HI all,
I just had lunch with my colleagues at work. I told a story to them that illustrates my growth to me. The reason it shows me my growth is because it was a story of my transition from judgement and isolation to openness and community. What is the difference between my life of judgment and isolation and my life of openness and community?

The ability to feel my feelings and be honest with myself, my HP and at least one other person about what I am feeling.

In the past, I was so messed up on sweets that I couldn't discern what I was feeling. If I could decide what I was feeling, I couldn't take responsibility for my feelings or tell someone about what was going on with me. I had to blame another person or situation and then eat at them. Or drown my sorrows in ice cream. Someone has shared about how much faster a half gallon of ice cream will go down if you microwave it!!

And how did the ability to feel my feelings come about? It all started with abstinence.
We talk about addictive eating being the solution . It's also the problem. I couldn't see my responsibility until I got abstinent. I couldn't even think about others not being responsible until this past year, after nearly five years of solid physical abstinence and working the Steps, reporting food, attending meetings, etc.
This has been a gradual progression. I just want to say that I would have really sold myself short if I had given up in the early days when it was so hard. I'm glad that I was desperate enough to keep coming back so that little by little, one day at a time, my life could be transformed. And it ain't over yet! At least I hope not. My fondest wishes at this moment are for you all to know how grateful I am for the support that I receive and that this is only a taste of what is before me. Thanks for teaching me how to live by your example.
Thanks and love to you all.
Kasey

December 8, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterKasey in ATL

thank you for sharing

January 9, 2015 | Unregistered Commenterroberta

Thank you for this inspiring, kind post. So encouraging to hear what time in abstinence makes possible

December 28, 2016 | Unregistered CommenterMelissa