I've been abstinent a little over a year, and it's just now sinking in that I am a food addict...forever. There is no cure. I have a daily reprieve from the disease, but I am not cured. I cannot be made into a normal eater. I have a choice every day when I wake up. Work the tools of recovery or not. Working the tools of recovery keeps me on the path of recovery. Ignoring the tools turns me to the road to relapse. I can think with all my might that I'm ok without phone calls, reporting food, forgiving, asking HP for help, but that would be a dangerous lie to think and believe.

I am 100% powerless over sugar, flour, wheat, volume, and animal fat and my life had become unmanageable.

All the might I could muster didn't get me one inch toward recovery.

God has all the power. God has all the love, kindness, and patience. God has all the desire and willingness to help me recover one day at a time.

I'm so thankful that I can't recover on my own because the friends I have made in RFA are the dearest friends and the support I need to recover and live a life worth living:)