RFA Talk > One Day at a Time
Thank you for your inspiring post Cathy. Thank God for one day at a time. When I think of all that I am faced with as... "one day at a time" I feel myself exhale .... I can do this one day at a time....

Hello,
I am new to this…I listened to Mike McKinnon on CBC's radio program "the Current" last week and have admitted to myself, to God and to another human being that I am powerless over food and my life has become unmanageable. So saying, I also identify as a recovering alcoholic, sober from alcohol over 13 years, but that sobering up just turned into an addiction to sugar and chocolate and now, 13 years later I feel as though I am in the same position I was when I stopped or tried to stop, drinking.
I am desperate, and find no one really understands, but that's because I am a really low body weight (chronic anorexia nervosa) so people just think I should eat more so that I gain weight.
I am looking for help. I know that complete abstinence is essential…I have tried the experiment over and over again and failed every day. Once I have even one little taste of chocolate I cannot stop. I am consumed by thoughts of food, rules around it, what I can or cannot eat, when I can eat it, ad infinitum. And I break them everyday. I understand that this is so complex, to do with my brain chemistry, my emotional life, it seems far too big for me to take on, overwhelming, so much so that by the end of the day, after keeping myself in such rigid control I am desperate for some comfort so go to the chocolate.
It's not getting better, only worse and some days I just want to die. It's got me…any suggestions on how to just get through a day???

One of my grandmother's favorite songs was called "One Day at a Time". I think the artist was Christy Lane or something like that. I can see the 8 track in my mind and hear her voice...the artist and Granny singing along. I think of that song often when I'm reminding myself that I just have to take life one day at a time. Life can be so overwhelming right?? So many factors, so many details, so many PEOPLE to deal with, so much of my own EGO to deal with! But I can make it today. I can call on the strength and comfort of God today. I can call members of the fellowship today. I can plan and report my food today. I can eat my weighed and measured food, no more, no less today. I can check in with my sponsor today. I can attend a meeting today. I can read recovery literature today. I can pray and meditate today. I can exercise today. I can be thankful today. I can accept myself just as I am today. I can accept others just as they are today. I can love and receive love today. I can relax and take it easy today. I can enjoy clarity of mind today. I can pray for the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference today. Just today. I recover one day at a time.